2022 New Years Resolution!

Happy New Year Guys!!

What another Year, as one would hope each year to be better but as usual lots of stuff seems to cockblock or at least keep on happening haha 

My brother seem to contract COVID this week- Now that is new!- What a way to start off the new year haha - awaiting PCR test as I type! 

Enough excuses, I do not want to let that or any other things stop me especially writing or doing this! 

I've always seem to stop Mid-track or like cba to say/do what I want to do. 

(I have a dissertation that I must focus as we speak!!!)

Hence why instead of my 80 New Years Resolution that I did previously, Here's the link down below:

https://chi-chic123.blogspot.com/2019/01/happy-new-year-2019-resolution.html 

 I shall only perhaps do like in form of 5 Goals for now~ probably much more realistic and also (as you know I am now officially 25 haha)

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1. Let's really start the Bare Minimum 😂- Let's try not to Contract COVID!! 

1.1 Survive!! Like Mentally. Not just Physically haha

(((ok now everything after this is somewhat maybe optional; it also relates to the below video --)))

2. Expressing myself -> I seems to be very bad at expressing my ideas and thoughts. How do I improve this?  (Blog/Journal/Diary?)

3. Be more impulsive/ decisive for good reasons (Think of this like the CD register; gotta do it now! ) 

4. Understand that when you are in a relationship- know that do you like the YOU that is in the relationship!(((That is the key point!!)))

5. Stop comparing yourself with others especially within relationships in general (Friends/Best Friends) 

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Additionally, Today in this post I shall include a video which is starring Jenn!

OMG, do you not know much this video resonate me haha ; When she uploaded this that is when I felt like she truly is a star. She hit all the key point and is so relatable haha

As in these Questions are literally what I question to myself almost everyday haha (especially the one with the if the relationship I'm in is a waste of time now quite recently) 

And so I shall embedded this video here, as not only as reminder for myself but also for anyone who does read this blog post of mine hehe

Hope you like it and enjoy! 

Happy NEW Year! 2022 + Reflect/Recap of previous years especially 2021

 OMG can you believe it's been three years since I have last made my New Years resolution?!

I am quite shock how the times fly by real quickly especially with that New Years resolution to which I believe it was in 2019 since I last did one haha

So, the juicy part- Was there any progress you may ask? Well as much as it is quite hard to believe, there are some it seems! Out of 80 I think I mostly achieved 20, which is still progress on the bright side but knowing me my pessimistic self will say that is like 1/4....of the whole friggin 3 years!! Hahahaha Not complaining but just having a bit of laugh is all. 

I really ought to change my pessimistic way of thinking hehe

Anyways, What were the progress I have made so far? Sadly I haven't been keeping track of these goals which ironically was part of my new years resolution. That said, I think I have accomplished some as mentioned above. Here are the details below:

7) Keep all your great relationships

10) Catch yourself when your moods starts to go downhill and try to turn things around. Placebo thoughts

(This too, shall Pass!!)

11) Learn to recognise when you're having anxious thoughts

20) Spend time with Friends 

22) Be more thankful everyday

23) Seek Help

25) THIS YEAR, I SWEAR! I'M GOING TO LEARN TO COOK.

26) Give in to Cravings

33) Get a Job (Part-time/ Full-time)

37) Handle things as they come without worrying too much

38) Become better Adult

47) Speak in mostly Mandarin and Cantonese with my parents

50) Be more aware about tense muscles in my face.

51) Prioritise ergonomics so we can be less sore pls.

52) Be more aware about tense shoulders. 

55) I like the me recently that's been more impulsive/ definitive for good reasons. (i.e. "This really good ice cream place closes in 30 mins...If we all get in our cars right now, we can make it. LET'S DO IT... EVERYONE GO GO GO GO") More of that! :D

72) Stretch more often

77) Give my friends a lot of messages? Because who doesn't need a message?!

80) Keep supporting my k-pop and j-pop faves!! and to watch anime and/ or K-dramas- SUPPROT! Procrastination- Change that. 

Birthday Surprise for a Good friend- 06/11/21 - Feeling not just proud but also warm ^^

 So it was my good friend, Cindy's birthday yesterday and I thought I would do a little surprise! In which I decided to send her some cupcakes not only saying good wishes on her special day but also because of an upcoming pre-reg exam she has to do (again), that I hope it would give some extra support and comfort. 

I know in these trying times it can be hard to push through things and get yourself together so with these in place it's just a nice feeling getting a surprise or even making one hehe 

Anyways, I couldn't have done it without the help of this local patisserie in Nottingham (Cherryontop) whom I found online. Not gonna lie, it wasn't that simple to just simply find someone who could deliver some cake to your doorstep (as I need it to be delivered for I am not based in Nottingham) plus in terms of the type of 'cakes' I have in mind, it has to be easy to take in so realistic, as well as not too extravagant (Don't want to end up leaving Cindy in a muddle for I know she's not the kind of girl who is that fancy, as also has to prepare for the exam!). I mean if it was me I'm not sure if I would want to be in a right mind in wanting to a big round cake at my doorstep (even though it is nice don't get me wrong!) but then to later on eat it all in one go lol.  I initially went for this website: https://thecakesolution.co.uk/view-all-products/ which I was thinking of getting either getting a strawberry glazed baked cheesecake or one of the party cakes (the 7 "Cookies & Cream) (Looking back again, the Mudcakes - Premium boston- looks nice) but felt that "yeah that is too big" 😅

After going through a couple of websites online for cakes to be delivered, the one that caught my eye is https://www.cherryontopcupcakes.co.uk/ . Her reviews and also Instagram instantly made me choose her shop as I decided on having cupcakes and hers was the perfect choice. It was very simple as luckily she had her email on insta so it was easy to reach out to her and be able to make fast conversation. The minimum order is 6 cupcakes, with up to 2 flavours. However seeing on her insta, it seems to be possible to get 3 flavours so I asked! and fortunately she was able to fulfill that wish 😌.

All in all I cannot thank enough. As I hope not only did it put a smile on Cindy's face but also made me put a smile. 

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 Haven't been giving an update post throughout this journey of the blog so here I am, taking this step to do one.... except it's a more a depressive one rather than the perhaps usual 'cherry' post

I honestly don't even know where to begin, because this big part of my heart where the issue lies is actually a long term problem. I have been trying so hard not to let it get to me, so hard to communicate this out but honestly I am just fed up and it is really sad I have to put this out here in my blog in which the internet may see; I have been contemplating a lot and a lot more recently- it's got to a point there is no return. Lately and literally last night I have been feeling super down in the slump that I end up sleeping at 5am. Perhaps I am currently in my shark week but that does not normally lead me to having meltdowns I swear! I am person who is normally calm even during this period but this post says otherwise that I am about to make, which also bothers me as I feel like an outright monster but just know that I have no choice but to simply express myself here and so without further ado, I shall now delve straight right into it... 

As some may or may not know, I am currently 24 in writing this, about to turn 25 in say 3 months (omg). I live with my parents and although I know I am old enough to move out, I am not financially stable nor am I emotionally prepare due to studies (4th year MPharm) and part time jobs. But in no way am I by all means saying that I have an excuse, I will at some point move out but just want to vent it all out here. 

Basically when I am away or when whilst I'm at work (bnot at home in other words), my mum will go through my room without ever getting permission from me and tidy and reorganise my bedroom, and by reorganise I mean she'll go so far as to go through my drawers and move things around, throw things away etc. Like she opens all my drawers, rearranges stuff, opens my mail (I’m over 21). She leaves things in different places or she will put a pair of socks in my electronics drawer, almost like a message that she was there. It’s like she wants me to know she was going through my stuff. I got a lock box that I keep under my bed but I’m sick of her STILL snooping through my personal stuff.

This upsets me to the point where I have had several meltdowns (all in private), usually hours after the fact once the gravity of what she has done dawns on me. I very rarely have meltdowns, in fact all of the meltdowns I've had over the past year have been at least in part due to her reorganising my room without my permission, so it is a big deal. The main reason it upsets me is that not being able to find my things is very distressing to me. To her, my room probably looks disorganised and messy. And yeah, I will admit it is quite messy, I struggle to keep it tidy at the moment and it's something I want to work on. But what I don't think she realises is that despite the apparent mess everything in my room has its place, and I know exactly where everything is, which is something I find comforting so having it all moved around is really hard to cope with. I also really value my privacy, and the thought of her potentially going through my stuff is very upsetting. So last week her computer broke down and she use my old laptop.

My room is my sanctuary and where I escape to recharge after long hours of masking at work, so having it be tampered with puts me on edge and prevents me from being able to relax.

As with any problem, in order to solve is to communicate, right? I tried to talk and confront my mum about it but really it is no use because all she would say is " This is her house and that she can do whatever she wants" Additionally it would also result her in being emotionally abusive and accusing me of being a bad daughter, irresponsible, and hurling insults at me like "no man will ever want to marry you" "You deserve what you get, when you get your results really badly from exam etc" or "Cry when I am going to die or when your father dies" She really does not care, and I really tired of her fucking shit. I am now not talking to her and refusing to take in any of her food as talking to her won't help. I am feeling really tired from having to keep talking about this. I just want someone to relate and can say my feelings are valid because is it so much to ask for space? I understand I'm living under her roof but I don't think it's unreasonable to expect some privacy?  I really want my feelings to be known but honestly letting my mum know nicely won't help. Tell me I am not crazy!!! T______________________T

My mother is going to far with her barging into my room. : Advice (reddit.com)

My mom has no respect for my things and thinks I am 10 still!!! Anyone else dealing with the same stuff?? : raisedbynarcissists (reddit.com)

How to ask my mum to stop doing something that triggers meltdowns : aspergirls (reddit.com)

My mom keeps moving my stuff when I leave my room : Advice (reddit.com)

Visiting my hoarder Mom, how to prepare myself mentally? : declutter (reddit.com)

My mother just tidied up my room - The Student Room

Mom keeps ruining my room (rareddit.com)

I’ve never seen this feeling put into words. : aspergirls (reddit.com)

"Quarantine" diary 1

Unprecedented times- Coronavirus- March/April

As per the usual I would either place down here some happy thoughts or my grumbly rants but today, the tone shall be quite different as shall delve onto matter. So with that being said, I am more scared to come off as whiny or as if I am not better off than billions of people right now... However I decided in order to especially remember these moments I should at least document my experience in this global pandemic here to look back on.
Apart from studies, I was really fortunate enough to not go through strenuous hardships therefore I cannot deny that I am in a position of privilege because I don't need to worry about the roof over my head, or my source of income (working at two essential businesses / services one of which is at a small Korean grocery store so thankfully not been furloughed), or taking public transportation where my dad (furloughed as working in a restaurant) help out by driving me to work in the pharmacy, or even the likelihood of death in my immediate circles which honestly cannot be forever more thankful for not being put in heart-wrenching position... 

Run with the Wind~

Three Words.

I. Love. It!

As you can tell, I have finished! And have even made another entry dedicated for this.
GOD, Honestly how could I missed this anime!?! It's soooo underrated.

ABSOLUTELY love it!! OMG 100% 10/10- Very motivational 
I just love this type of show where the characters really does develops and you can definitely see the change not just in the main character but others too where they change for the better!!! It's an absolutely life changer.
Not exaggerating but I feel it's one of those anime that really does lift you up from your depression spiritually/ mentally. It really change your perspective of how you see things in various way, one of which is definitely running but in general such as what life really is...
However be warned that at the same time, this anime's also gonna make you feel somewhat empty as you finish the show. I know I did lol, think I am going to stop watching anime in a mean time.

Basically taken and edited from Wikipedia once again, this show is about a former elite runner at high school named Kakeru who is chased for stealing food. He is saved by a Kansei University student Haiji, who is also a runner. Haiji persuades Kakeru to live in the old dormitory "Chikuseisou" where he plans to team up with fellow residents to enter the Hakone Ekiden relay marathon, one of the most prominent university races in Japan. Kakeru soon finds out that all of the residents except for Haiji and himself are complete novices. 

I 1000% +, no, more like indefinitely and highly recommend this anime! It has now landed into my top number 1 anime show especially in the sports field. It's definitely an entry to make and to watch for. I really will miss this show as it was an absolute rollercoaster in the most painful yet fulfilling way. Simply Gold.

[Mini Spoiler alert] and for more info down below

Breather

Born to be Wild...

A Mid Review this time! in the midst of the Coronavirus Gosh, am I super glad to have come across this anime! Like when was the last time I watched a non romance one? ......2-3 years ago!?! It's a sports show and now that I think about it, the last time I watched along that line was Yuri on Ice and Free Season 1. Both of which are quite good but they're not quite something that y'know.... brings out the edge? or makes you want to write on a spur despite them having those intense moments of competitions made here and there. It must be the fan service 

This anime has a flavour of reality so meaning that not only does it has a comedic acts but it brings out some real deep meaning making you have some good 'reflection' as you go along. Most importantly there's a lot of character development. Huge commandment to that! Love that a good show that actually brings out action, and I can also see the subtle differences made by the studio such as the when the characters undergo physical changes, and no I don't mean the men's abs *Ahem* (Free~) 

Anyhow! Back on "track", maybe it's just me but you can see the physical changes when their skin tone change as they train under the hot sun (episode 12?) lol the attention to detail is great

Blimey, this anime got me hooked! Also the soundtrack is so amazing! Did I tell you that was the one that got me into this anime? Hahaha

(Should have mentioned it from the start)

*Actually Insert the song*

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Ok that's it guys, still haven't finish the anime yet so shall be here to finish that but I just cannot wait. Till then, gonna make a dash for this show 💨 

UPDATE: 13/03/2020-

Annndddd Finished this anime so Check out my review onto the next post! It needs to be recognised hehe.

This Manga is to be kept with Love!

Heyyy

So I'm back (officially!?!) . Slowly getting back to being my 'old' self I suppose, by reading some mangas...Maann! This hits home, I wonder when was the last time did I lose myself in a manga 😌.....

Love in Cherry blossom. I highly recommend this manga! Finished on 08/03/2020
I first found this out from it being an animated series then decided to finish the manga in English lol. More information right down below ⇣

Despite it's slow start which I gotta admit was tad boring, however as you go along the story line it gets better and is pretty refreshing!! Honestly up till now, never in my life have I felt so intrigued to actually carry on to read and finished a manga, What's more, to be more precise it's a manhwa meaning it's a Chinese comic. Sorry if it sounded patronising by the use of the emphaised words but seriously I haven't felt that much compulsion towards Chinese produced animation (ok that's a slight lie, see down below) let alone its' comic series. 
I guess it's all thanks to now wanting to improve my mandarin since I started a part time job (lol) at an oriental/korean supermarket and my love for psychic princess, another good manghwa and now animated series to read and watch! (which I shall definitely do a quick review of this) hahaha

So Love in Cherry Blossom, Where do I begin!?!
This manghwa, as you can tell from its name, is about all about Love and I guess the abundance of life lol~ If I have to choose one word to describe this story it would be: Youth

Here a rating and a Summary of the story:

8/10

It basically revolves and centres around a girl name Lu and a boy name Xia Yi with both of them holding each other secret. The boy is the coolest guy in school whilst the girl is the shy innocent type. Both of them hold each other's secret and in order to keep it within themselves, they make and exchange a deal. Spoiler alert: One of them (the boy) offers to help produce a love confession (no surprise there). Could this be genuine or could it be a tease...? Or....?

Alright so you can probably gather the plot/ gist just from the summary of the story which does contains a spoiler, but that's the foundation of it. This mostly happens at the beginning (that was the boring bit lol) however I can assure you it does get better. Luckily I decided to carry on to read and not judge the book by its' cover- have to admit that was what pulled me in lol- and also the summary as well, as beside these two main characters we do have some side characters which to me was what brings out the finale and true flavour of the story. Going to leave a picture that sums what I meant by 'true flavour ' ⇣

Artwork: 10/10- Now I just don't do a section of a review purely on the artwork and would normally clump it all into one piece of the review but this part definitely needs a parts of its own!
At the beginning, the artwork wasn't that great but as the story progress and with time, it gets better making it aesthetically pleasing. I absolutely love it! (I currently making it my as phone background hahaha)

Final feelings and conclusion: 9/10
Overall, made it into my favourites to read and perhaps to watch out for again- looking forward to hearing and finishing it in Mandarin! And if got time to reading it (Mandarin) Chinese.

More Info: As of now writing, this manghwa is currently turn into an ongoing animated series. It is done slightly in a style of a Vomic (where its voice over in the comic) but there are some animated movement in the production made by animation Dong I presume, thus making it animated series.
This can be found here: Anime动态漫 | Love Like Cheery Blossoms

Read here (in English) at: Wakamics