Exams over (for the time being) with One week till BlackPink Comes down to London!

Hawoo hawoo hello, its been a while. Honestly, what can I say. TAT 

I literally cannot remember how April went apart from this car accident that happened on the 2nd (Omo \oAo/). (Again I shall quickly write an entry on that). 

This academic year has been nothing but a whole loada stress. I know I said it many times but honestly I cannot emphasise this strongly. It can be officially said, this is a joke now. Whilst Exams for 2nd year for Pharmacy are officially over.....I can't help but have this mixed feeling on me (more will be said down below). 

Really didn't want this to happen but y'know it just happens....

Basically Whilst revising for my final last exam (which was yesterday), the result for one of the module comes in, it happened to be right after my 2nd exam (that module), I can't help but to have a quick peak at my results only to falter at the sore sight of having to retake one of the test. It was the critical elements which means you need to pass these all in order to move onto the next stage (the 3rd year). There were 3 that you must pass (thank the lord) and suprisingly I passed the other 2, one being the exempt lab (I thought I fail that) which I mentioned before in my previous entry I believe. At first, I didn't cry but then after a good few hours later along with my mum seeing this result (I don't know how that ended up to be), I gave in and broke down like mad- it hit me like a ton of bricks. Honestly the past few days was so bad, to the point that having to revise for that exam in particular was so. damn. hard. Apart from receiving my a-levels results, I don't think I have ever felt that strongly demotivated. Not to mention that module wasn't particularly any interesting in the beginning and also quite hard on top of that.

It was dispensing that I failed. I was really upset given that I have tried my very best, the ultimate you could say for it...yet to know that you have once again fail and that what's even worse is that you're the only one in your small group chat to have fail. It was heart wrenching. I was completely shattered. 

I really want to give up, pondering whether is there any point to carry on with this course anymore and to ditch & forget that last exam in that moment in time but I know I just can't do that..... 

Having come that far, I know I have to try...at least cry trying then die, then try or else that regret for not revising much could be worse, not that afterwards or me typing this up was any better but at least I did what I was suppose to be doing.

Anyhow, there's goes the sum of my life since April, sorry for this dull post. I don't want to do this but a few days back then, it really did sullen the mood... now it's just the wait for Blackpink which at first I was really looking forward but now it's not much exciting as I imagine it out be, now that I know that I have to resit for dispensing in the baggage (for the 3rd time T_T) *sigh* oh and also for the rest of the results too....

Ok, right....Enough!!! Cheer up~ 💟 It is a crime to be sad on the first day of the holiday hahaha.
Oh right! My mum was so kind to have brought some sort of lucky charm (Turns out she ask the sender if this could be sent over by 1st class since luckily the postage was included so the getting it by 1st class wasn't much of a biggie). My heart melt right there 😭.

Here's the picture of the lucky charm that was just before the final exam hahaha. It's a picture of the rat (my chinese zodiac sign) if can't tell? I mean I don't blame you, at first I couldn't but then after having a good week or two now, I can see finally make shape of it lol. Really fortunate and blessed overall. 🙏

A much closer view 

 

 

Work it, Twerk it! (Don't know what to call this now...) and a (Scandalous) Internet Scam!

Wow, So much has happen like.... 💥
First of all may I just say that:

1. January- It was horrible. I can't believe it was long. This is the first time I have despise this month, despite it given to be my birthday month lol. 😅 I don't know, my emotions were really on a rollercoaster I feel....

2. February- That went super fast 😮- it's crazy how I can feel how short it really was

3. March- And now it's 3rd month into 2019. Woah.

There's a meme on those 3 points above to which made me agree on this strongly, if this wasn't put out... I don't think I would put this here?

Anyways, I honestly I can't remember the last time I felt so burnt out. That is just how bad it is.... to the point that I feel numb?!?!
I thought A-levels were bad enough but I guess I was wrong.... 😓😭😭😅😂 Even GCSEs before A-levels, Geezzz! Can't believe I thought all that was like..... hard?! (What a joke this has become?! 😅😂😂)

and now back to the reality!...Assignment after assignment, then really... a small exam after an assignment?!! (which we called it Progress Test as so to speak) that counts to one of our module marks overall- Had to cram that all of these in like 3 days?!!- then now we got the clinical simulations to focus on as it's this coming Tuesday as well as the presentation (This also counts!) which is the week after, along with the Extemporaneous (Exempt) lab (Making of medical products) 😭- Oh my flipping Goddd!!

Like don't get me wrong! I know I shouldn't complain as almost everyone I know are pretty much in a similar boat or probably had it worse? But I just can't help but would like to express my feelings and thoughts here? As well as I understand the importance and the stress that comes with this particular course, since it is the price to pay afterall 😒 ahaha 😅 But I honestly think that this could be little bit more organised especially coming towards the end of the academic year as well as some of the things that really aren't that important as it sounds, like the dispensing test and especially the exempt lab, I feel they shouldn't really be like a critical PASS or FAIL tasks. There's just so much to ask for 2nd year especially this month in my opinion 😔

As mentioned before, I had the progress test after the assignment which was kindly extended to a Monday Midday instead due my uni renovating the online system, so I guess we were lucky in the sense where can make the assignment to the 'best' quality, but then we would have the test on Friday morning (08/03/19), wtf ?! it looks like I have Monday (Day 1) to Thursday (Day 4), 4 days to revise all the content even to quite latest lecture we've been taught last week in total but in reality I had 2-3 days to revise instead, as Tuesday was the exempt lab to prepare for- Luckily that was still a formative! but still it's a shambles...really 😔 *Sigh*

On top of that! OMG, I don't know if I mentioned this here before....I doubt I have did so here it goes....Long story short, our internet connection was down for like a week or 2 with the signal coming back on but it was still fluctuating back at home. So, then some fucking sick bastards decides to take advantage of this situation by calling my mum (Poor her, honestly she always seem to encounter these sort of bad people...) to get her into getting the computer system- These bloody fraudsters😡😡. This all happened after the test on the Friday, that I decide to give a call to my mum to see what is the situation was with the WiFi, as we call our provider to send a new router on Wednesday/Thursday to which it had arrive on a Friday. My mum then filled me in on she got a call from our provider on how our system seem to be hacked. This was NOT the case. I found this all out later that evening- sending me chills to the bone. I tend to reflect on things that has happen... so much to the point that even now as I write this up, that I can't believe I would also get trap in this sort of thing, making me gullible (At first I thought it was genuine but then I would think it is not.... I don't know if this makes sense but yeah...). I swear these people will pay for their sins.
I would write up lot about this...but it requires some screenshot to include here which I feel and think is better to justify and understand the whole picture. Right now, there's just so much to write about and be informed. Instead, I have put some links on here which was very similar to what happened to us. Sadly this obviously was not the first case to have happened in the world....

Link 1: https://www.webologist.co.uk/internet-security/windows-security-and-the-w3c-validators-telephone-scam 
Link 2: http://www.salisbury-computer-repairs.co.uk/computer-repair-scams.html 

By me writing this here, not only would it help myself I feel.... but for everyone as I hope that it would bring some more awareness of this sort of situation. Though I doubt anyone would be reading this? Ahaha...If anyone manages to read this, congratulations! 😅😂😂

Ok, so onto my Cousin's (Victor) Play !! Which was on very next day, Saturday! Woooop, The weekend has finally arrived~